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She went but seldom to this room again, and when she went she stood
always in the background, far more in fear that some one would
address her than that she should meet with neglect. She was used to
neglect, and to being regarded as a nonentity, and aught else
discomfited her. All her pleasure was to hear what was said, though
'twas not always of the finest wit--and to watch Clorinda play the
queen among her admirers and her slaves. She would not have dared
to speak of Sir John Oxon frequently--indeed, she let fall his name
but rarely; but she learned a curious wit in contriving to hear all
things concerning him. It was her habit cunningly to lead Mistress
Margery to talking about him and relating long histories of his
conquests and his grace. Mistress Wimpole knew many of them,
having, for a staid and prudent matron, a lively interest in his
ways. It seemed, truly--if one must believe her long-winded
stories--that no duchess under seventy had escaped weeping for him
and losing rest, and that ladies of all ranks had committed follies
for his sake.
Mistress Anne, having led her to this fruitful subject, would sit
and listen, bending over her embroidery frame with strange emotions,
causing her virgin breast to ache with their swelling. She would
lie awake at night thinking in the dark, with her heart beating.
Surely, surely there was no other man on earth who was so fitted to
Clorinda, and to whom it was so suited that this empress should give
her charms. Surely no woman, however beautiful or proud, could
dismiss his suit when he pressed it. And then, poor woman, her
imagination strove to paint the splendour of their mutual love,
though of such love she knew so little. But it must, in sooth, be
bliss and rapture; and perchance, was her humble thought, she might
see it from afar, and hear of it. And when they went to court, and
Clorinda had a great mansion in town, and many servants who needed a
housewife's eye upon their doings to restrain them from wastefulness
and riot, might it not chance to be that if she served well now, and
had the courage to plead with her then, she might be permitted to
serve her there, living quite apart in some quiet corner of the
house. And then her wild thoughts would go so far that she would
dream--reddening at her own boldness--of a child who might be born
to them, a lordly infant son and heir, whose eyes might be blue and
winning, and his hair in great fair locks, and whom she might nurse
and tend and be a slave to--and love--and love--and love, and who
might end by knowing she was his tender servant, always to be
counted on, and might look at her with that wooing, laughing glance,
and even love her too.
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